I love my blog

Such a long long time I've not written anything here. But when sometimes I came here, it really recall back my memory. And i never get tired reading all those post. Arrhh.. What a long time now. 

Sekelip mata everything change. I have a cute little baby with my loving husband by my side. Oh Allah what a blessing I could ever ask for. They are really my penyejuk mata dan penyejuk hati. My baby is 7 months old, Iman muttaqin we call him. He is such a good no-tantrum-at-all baby. Even during my pregnancy I never had such morning sickness and all. Alhamdulillah. 

My sayang my king my bestfriend. The best thing about my hubby is that he always doing the best for me and Iman. My favourite time with him is when our baby is sleeping, we talk about everything together. About life, family, ambition, dreams. I love talking to him. Its just like talking to your best friend hours and hours and finally fall asleep to each other. Sometimes we argue about certain things and fall apart because of the different. Finally we fall back together and make us closer to each other. Alhamdulillah ya Allah. 

One things that I wish I could always do with my sayang and my baby is constantly contribute ourself in dakwah which that is how we say thank you to Allah. Alhamdulillah even with a 7 months baby I manage to attend ESQ/taklimdarulmurtadza every week helping the training. I will keeep that going on even after I had 10 babies. insyaallah. hew hew hew. 

Apapun dlm hidup akan ada ujian2 yang perlu di tempuhi tambahan pula bila kita kawin we are not only married our hubby but also his family. If semua benda kita nak terasa hati, hidup akan jd sangat terseksa. Jadi, we need to have a BIG HEART. Big heart that is not easily affected with people mouth. Semua orang ada preference masing2. Kita takkan mampu buat semua orang suka kita. Yang kita mampu adalah menjaga akhlak kita dan ignore all those kata2 tohmahan orang. Yang baik kita ambik yang buruk kita maafkan je. 

Yang penting FOCUS to our dreams. Yakni kita nk mati dan berjumpa Allah. Hidup kita bukan sekadar bergaduh dgn org, terasa hati and all. But hidup kita ada misi yang lebih besar yaitu berusaha untuk dekat dgn Allah, sibukkan diri dgn pengajian agama, mencari rezeki dgn perniagaan (go to facebook; shaf collection).. maka kita takkan perasan sgt benda2 yang kecik ni. Tak gituuu? 

Then you will find your life is happy dan tenang Insyaallah. 

Till we meet again. Assalamualaikum. Thanks for reading blog mak jemah. lulz. 

Sahabat dunia akhirat


In our life, we will meet many kind of people.Some were very kind hearted. I have one friend who never has any perception towards others. She's my roomate during our life in utp. She knows everything about me. Even now we haven't talk so much, but when me meet, there's no wall between. its like the old days we used to talk and its never gonna change.

As the time goes by, I meet many other human being with many kind of attitudes. There's one friend who like you by condition. If he/she doesn't like what you do she will backbitting you instead of tell honestly to you. Yeah, i met this type of friend already. Kinda upset for me at first because i really love her like my own sister but i now didnt care much.

What is important in friendship is honesty. Love your friend like your own sibling. Sometime you will fight but eventually you will laugh together again.

Special post to my sahabat dunia akhirat: pau, lin, sirah, kak al, kak yan, nana, mun, aini, kak mark, timoh, syik, fiq, dayang.

Life in life

Ya Allah, 

Indahnya merasai ada kehidupan dalam hidupku. Merasai anak dalam kandungan ini bergerak2, suatu keindahan perasaan yg tak tergambarkan. Membawa zuriat suamiku seperti membawa benih cintanya, cinta kami kepada Mu. 

Gambar sekadar hiasan

Ya Allah, 
Tambahkan kesyukuran dalam hatiku, tambahkan kesyukuran dalam setiap amal perbuatanku, tanda aku bersyukur menjadi hamba Mu. Biarpun aku selalu sahaja khilaf kepada Mu, tetap sahaja Engkau beri kami nikmat dan kebaikan pada kami. 

Lalu nikmat Tuhanmu yg mana lagi yang hendak Engkau dusta kan? 

Ideal State of Life

i·de·al  (ī-dē′əl, ī-dēl′)

n.
1. A conception of something in its absolute perfection.
2. One that is regarded as a standard or model of perfection or excellence.
3. An ultimate object of endeavor; a goal.
4. An honorable or worthy principle or aim.


As an engineering student, I think most of us would always heard about ideal state or ideal condition. When we are calculating any engineering term, we where always assuming the water or the object is in ideal condition in order to get the correct answer.

But somehow we can't really comply these to our real life. Our life is not as ideal as we thought it should be. When I started joining usrah long time ago, I was taught that you should follow this, that and that. I can't do this, this and that. Islam is not as rigid as that. Some people will not agreed with me. 

In life, you will not always getting something you wish for. I wish for a really beautiful journey towards my wedding day which include the taaruf, the mahar is Al Quran, our parents will make it easy, you have to get married to ikhwan, so that you will happily ever after, so on and so forth. But the reality is far far far away beyond the dreams. But the concept is still the same although the condition is not ideal. 

The concept is: 


Whatever reality that you has to face, always choose Allah. 




Life and Lesson

Almost 2 years I've not writing anything in this blog aka my dairy. And for 2 years I've gone tru ups and down in my life.

This 2 years Allah had taught me a lot.

1) Allah will gives whatever you desired for as long as your intention is HIM. Subhanallah He really is.

2) Allah will show you the truth as long as you zero your mind from any perception, negative thinking towards any people or situation.  Be natural, and you can differentiate those who is full of hatred and those who full of love and care.

3) Always be thankful of what you have instead of comparing yourself with other. Allah gives his blessing in different form for each person.  

4) As long as what you do is to obedient His rules,, insyaallah He will take care the rest. Don't worry.

5) Stop worrying too much of what people think. You have no responsibility of what they think and judge you. They are the one who has to face Allah for their negative perception and fitnah.

6) Blessing is not what people see, it is what you feel.

Salam, insyaallah i will keep writing. :) smile people.


ku panjat sebuah doa

Ya Allah! Aku mohon pemilihan Mu menerusi pengetahuan Mu dan aku mohon kekuatan Mu menerusi kudrat Mu serta aku minta pada Mu sebahagian dari limpah kurnia Mu yang sangat besar. Sesungguhnya Engkau amat berkuasa sedangkan aku tidak berkuasa, Engkau amat mengetahui sedangkan aku tidak mengetahui dan sesungguhnya Engkau amat mengetahui segala yang ghaib. Ya Allah kiranya Engkau mengetahui bahawa perkara ini adalah baik bagiku dalam urusan agama ku juga dalam urusan penghidupan ku serta natijah pada urusan ku, kini dan akan datang, maka tetapkan lah ia bagi ku dan permudahkanlah ia untukku, serta berkatilah daku padanya. Dan kiranya Engkau mengetahui bahawa perkara ini membawa kejahatan kepadaku dalam urusan agamaku, juga dalam urusan penghidupanku dan natijah urusanku, kini dan akan datang, maka elakkanlah ia dariku dan tetapkanlah kebaikan untukku sebagaimana sepatutnya, kemudian jadikanlah daku meredhainya. (Dari hadis riwayat Imam Bukhari)

Kalau dh itu takdirnya..

I am not from a rich family. My family is just an ordinary, moderate family originated from Kelantan. I have a funny but fierce dad, a kind yet firm mother.


I have a brother who just finish his study from an ordinary college, but he has a beautiful heart. He always put his siblings first, he always thinking that he is not really important compared to others.. you're important to me bro.. i still remember, one day, he rather go to work by his kapcai moto, because he want me to use the car. Yet he was trapped in the rain because of other people..
Ya Allah mulianya hati abgku, berilah dia hidayah dan keampuanan-Mu..

I have 2 younger brother and sista. My bro is not entering any universiti as he loves sport so much. but he is not as good as khairul fahmi che mat, his friend, so he left his whole life interest, and now he is working with my pak cik, who own an insurance company. my youngest sista is now studying in UNISEL doing early childhood education. She is always kind and menjadi kesayangan mama & papa coz she is the youngest (ayat cam jeles je kan.. hehe)

Graduating from UTP is my dream that i always wanna give as a beautiful memory to my parent. And last sunday, 16 oct 2011, i can say, the happiest day to my parent. They never attend any graduation ceremony before, so that was their first experience. i always wanna serve my parent right after i finish my studies, but I've tried my best yet, i do not received any interview.

But one day i got a call that turn out to be my rezeki that i never thought before. My Japanese professor, call me and ask me to be his Research Assistant and at the same time doing master under him. Gosh.. menda yg paling sy tanak adalah sambung blaja turn out to be my destiny. That is what we call REZEKI, we may have our own plan, but Allah has better plan..

Maybe Allah want me to be a lecturer, maybe Allah want me to continue doin da'wah in UTP. But leaving my family again for another 2 years is really a tearful moment for me.

Ya Allah, aku mohon Engkau permudahkan urusan dunia & akhirat ku, jadikan aku anak yang berbakti kepada kedua ibubapaku, jadikan aku seorang manusia yg berbakti kpd agama-Mu.

Bismillah

Bismillah..


It had been so long i've not written anything in my novel of life.. i wonder if anyone really follow my blog coz me myself pun not that istiqamoh to update my own blog. huhuhu.

For me, a blog is not a medium to really want people to follow pon, it's just my novel of life to write anything about my life. maybe my story would inspire your life.. (bajet cam tokoh wanita kebangsaan je kan)

hmm.. I can say 2011 is really a year that Allah swt have tests me with a lot of dugaan & cubaan.. Dugaan & cubaan doesn't mean something yg susah giler, xde nasi nk makan ke, kena pelempang dgn lecturer ke.. its beyond that.. di beri cubaan kesenangan, cubaan perasaan (err.. yelah slalu pong pang pong pang bg tazkirah kt adik2.. ni Allah kasi direct nye ujian), to see how we handle that.. coz Allah berfirman,

“Patutkah manusia menyangka bahawa mereka akan dibiarkan dengan hanya berkata: “Kami beriman”, sedang mereka tidak diuji (dengan sesuatu cubaan)? Dan demi sesungguhnya! Kami telah menguji orang-orang yang terdahulu daripada mereka, maka (dengan ujian yang demikian), nyata apa yang diketahui Allah tentang orang-orang yang sebenar-benarnya beriman, dan nyata pula apa yang diketahuiNya tentang orang-orang yang berdusta. ” (Surah Al-Ankabut : 2,3)

and Alhamdulillah, i manage to go tru it with smile altho there are tears in my eyes.. well i've learn something~

rapuh..

detik waktu terus berjalan
berhias gelap dan terang
suka dan duka tangis dan tawa
tergores bagai lukisan

seribu mimpi berjuta sepi
hadir bagai teman sejati
di antara lelahnya jiwa
dalam resah dan air mata
kupersembahkan kepadaMu
yang terindah dalam hidup

meski ku rapuh dalam langkah
kadang tak setia kepadaMu
namun cinta dalam jiwa
hanyalah padaMu

maafkanlah bila hati
tak sempurna mencintaiMu
dalam dadaku harap hanya
diriMu yang bertahta

detik waktu terus berlalu
semua berakhir padaMu


song: Opick

Live your life


Right now, in the very moment that you are reading this article, you can start doing what is necessary to completely transform the quality of your life. It’s nothing complicated, the key is in the understanding of the principles. How do you get the ball rolling? Here are 5 ways that can help you start living a truly exceptional life:

Don’t demand, become
Don’t wait for the world to give you something. Go out there and make it happen. Don’t be a person that reacts to a situation, be the one that made the situation happen. Let me give you an example. Lottery is a pretty popular activity in most countries, especially in North America, where people spend up to hundreds of dollars a month in hopes of winning. I’m sure you all know the odds of winning the lottery, let’s just say you have a better chance of being bitten by a shark without even swimming! If those people were to take their money and do something productive like investing it or building a business for example, their chances of becoming financially rich skyrockets! So remember, don’t wait for things to happen to you, make it happen for you.

Work harder on yourself
Most people spend more time focusing on their work than they do on themselves. You are the foundation to all that you do and become. Without a proper, well kept foundation, anything built upon it is prone to be flawed. Make it your mantra to improve who you are as a human being. How about learning to be a nicer person, instead of worrying about what others think of you? How about doing some good deed for someone else, instead of thinking about what else you can buy yourself? How about learning to relax, instead of agonizing about your schedule for tomorrow? Think in terms of “quality”, become a better person, take care of yourself more, learn to prioritize your personal growth, and watch how it affects all other areas of your life. Don’t believe me? Try it for yourself!

Associate with winners
Negative energy is like a virus. It spreads very easily, and it is very contagious. Losers have a tendency to relish within their own misery, as if they’ve gone mad from this “negativity plague”, and if they can bring anyone down to their level, all the better for them. Learn to stay away from losers and their negative energy. There is nothing for you to gain. You won’t change them by trying, as a matter of fact, they are trying to rip you apart from your own positivity. We tend to become a product of our environment, and this includes our circle of acquaintances. Keep company with successful, happy people, and let it rub off on you. You will feed off from each other’s energy and build it up, instead of down.

Greatness is an art form
Happiness and greatness is not having more or doing more. The secret is all in the style. Living well is like a beautiful piece of art. Imagine a stunning painting, with exquisite details, and attention to even the slightest, most obscure areas of the canvas. View your life and your striving for a better life in the same manner. Be the person that leaves a healthy tip. Be the one that takes time to read a book with your kids. Be the person that raises the bar for quality. You are the artist, and it is up to you to create the most unique, most exceptional piece of art that there is: your life.

Do your part, God will do his
My mom always used to say the following saying in French when I was a kid, “aide toi et le ciel t’aidera”. To lead an exceptional life, it is crucial that you do what you are supposed to do. Don’t wait for others to bail you out and do it for you. Don’t wait for God to lay a helping hand. Miracles are probably more rare than winning the lottery! Help yourself. Do your part. Do what’s right. Follow your heart. Then, and only then, will you have aligned yourself enough with the helping hands of your God that if not miracles, then at least magic, will take place :)

Taken from: http://www.ineedmotivation.com/blog/2010/08/5-ways-to-live-a-more-exceptional-life/

solat

Alhamdulillah ya Allah,,, to know U, to love U, to being love by U.. is the most awesome thing ever happen to me. As for me before this, i just know Allah as a God.. nothing less, nothing much. But, after several causes happen, i started to realize the One behind all those things happen in my whole life is U. The happiness cannot be replaced by any word.


May this happiness will never end.

To those who read this blog, there is only one message i wanna share.. its about our solat. If your solat make you become a discipline, honest, positive person.. so its look like you really care bout ur solat.. but if its the other way around... the solat is just a physical activities without meaning. try to improve in give some focus in our solat, so we will be a very visionary person in real life...

may Allah forgive all of us..

the choices are yours

Don't you ever dare to think that you have a long life ahead. A friend of mine was about a week hospitalized for lung failure. We never when is our time.

Kehidupan ini bukanlah permulaan mahupun pertengahan, tapi bagaimana pengakhirannya. Bagaimana pengakhiran kehidupan yg kita mahukan?

I give you some examples:

BANGKOK: Sebuah kelab malam yang sedang meraikan ketibaan Tahun Baru 2009 di tengah Bangkok terbakar, menyebabkan sekurang-kurangnya 60 maut dan 212 cedera.



or you can choose this





whatever it is, the choices are yours..

Aku rindu

Aku rindu zaman ketika “halaqoh” adalah kebutuhan,bukan sekedar sambilan apalagi hiburan

Aku rindu zaman ketika “membina” adalah kewajiban,bukan pilihan apalagi beban dan paksaan

Aku rindu zaman ketika “dauroh” menjadi kebiasaan,bukan sekedar pelengkap pengisi program yang dipaksakan


Aku rindu zaman ketika “tsiqoh” menjadi kekuatan,bukan keraguan apalagi kecurigaan

Aku rindu zaman ketika “tarbiyah” adalah pengorbanan,bukan tuntutan dan hujatan

Aku rindu zaman ketika “nasihat” menjadi kesenangan,bukan su’udzon atau menjatuhkan

Aku rindu zaman ketika kita semua memberikan segalanya untuk da’wah iniAku rindu zaman ketika “nasyid ghuroba” menjadi lagu kebangsaan

Aku rindu zaman ketika hadir di “liqo” adalah kerinduan, dan terlambatadalah kelalaian

Aku rindu zaman ketika malam gerimis pergi ke puncak mengisi daurohdengan ongkos ngepas dan peta tak jelas


Aku rindu zaman ketika seorang ikhwah benar-benar jalan kaki 2 jam di malam buta sepulang tabligh dawah di desa sebelah

Aku rindu zaman ketika akan pergi liqo selalu membawa uang infak, alat tulis, buku catatan dan Qur’an terjemahan ditambah sedikit hafalan

Aku rindu zaman ketika seorang binaan menangis karena tak bisa hadir di liqo


Aku rindu zaman ketika tengah malam pintu depan diketok untuk mendapat berita kumpul subuh harinya

Aku rindu zaman ketika seorang ikhwah berangkat liqo dengan ongkos jatah belanja esok hari untuk keluarganya

Aku rindu zaman ketika seorang murobbi sakit dan harus dirawat, para binaan patungan mengumpulkan dana apa adanya


Aku rindu zaman itu,

Aku rindu…Ya ALLAH,

Jangan Kau buang kenikmatan berda’wah dari hati-hati kami

Jangan Kau jadikan hidup ini hanya berjalan di tempat yang sama….”


By: KH Rahmat Abdullah

somewhere over the rainbow

Life is sometime much much more challenging than what we thought it will be. The temptations are everywhere in many forms.

I am just an ordinary me who will never stop to find the real me. The real me whereas no God but Allah in her heart.

I am not sure whether there is enough time for me but as the chance is still given, I will always pursue my dream to become a better person. I am hoping for a bright 2011. There are so many dream I want to accomplish. Dream is nothing until we pursue and get it.

somewhere over the rainbow
way up high
there's a land that i heard of
once in a lullaby

somewhere over the rainbow

skies are blue
and the dreams that you dare to dream
really do come true

some day I'll wish upon a star

and wake up where the clouds are far behind me
where troubles melt like lemon drops
away above the chimney tops

that's where you'll find me

somewhere over the rainbow

bluebirds fly
birds fly over the rainbow
why,then,oh why can't i?

somewhere over the rainbow

skies are blue
and the dreams that you dare to dream
really do come true

dia

Ketika bersendirian,
baru rasa nikmatnya kebersamaan.

ketika kesakitan, tiada lagi kata2 perangsang,
hanya bersendirian megubat kelukaan.

ada ramai teman-teman,
tapi tiada penolong perjuangan,
semakin hari, dia belajar utk bangkit sendirian,
bersama mereka yg berbeza pandangan tetapi sama tujuan..

dia belajar bagaimana utk kuat dlm lingkungan kemaksiatan,
dia belajar utk tahan kesakitan bersendirian, usah terlalu manja hendak meluahkan,
dia belajar utk tahajud tanpa ada yang mengejutkan,


kadang airmata nya deras mengalir memikirkan medan,
sendirian memikul keadaan,
sedang ummat semakin memerlukan,
kesihatannya juga kurang mengizinkan..

dia harus kuat mental, fizikal,
kerana dialah yg akan melahirkan para pejuang,
nanti tangannya bukan sekadar menghayun buaian,
tapi memegang bendera kemenangan!

p/s: doakan dia agar kuat!

wat did u get by drinking dis??



This is wat i read from kosmo online.. (tak pehe ambo, tiap2 tahun bg bantuan kat palestin tapi bakpo dok wi duit ko zionis pulop)

Let's reveal the truth..


From 1966 onward Coca-Cola has been a stauch supporter of Israel.[4]

In 1997 the Government of Israel Economic Mission honored Coca-Cola at the Israel Trade Award Dinner for its continued support of Israel for the last 30 years and for refusing ro abide by the Arab League boycott of Israel. [1]

[ In contrast Pepsi abided by the Arab League boycott of Israel which ended in May 1991, after 1992 Pepsi is also trading in Israel - see [2] ]

In 2001 the Coca-Cola World Headquarters hosted and was the main sponser of the American-Israel Chamber of Commerce Awards Gala.[5].

It has ben revealed that Coca-Cola Israel sponsers training programs for its workers on subjects including the Israeli-Arab conflict. The course content is created by a company funded by the Jewish Agency and the Israeli government.[6]

In February 2002, Coca-Cola teamed up with "Friends of Israel" and National Hillel to cosponser a lecture given by the infamous zionist correspondent Linda Gradstein at the University of Minnesota.[3]

In July 2002, it has been announced that Coca-Cola, in return for millions in incentives from the Israeli government, is to build a new plant on stolen Palestinian land at Kiryat Gat.[7]

In October 2005, Coca-Cola increased its investment in Israel by buying a 51 percent controlling interest in the Tavor Winery.

References:

[1] http://www.bham.net/shofar/1997/0697/nbriefs.html

[2] http://www.snopes2.com/cokelore/israel.htm

[3] http://electronicintifada.net/actionitems/020219gradstein.html

[4] http://www.israel-mfa.gov.il/mfa/go.asp?MFAH00ul0

[5] http://www.rdu-yok-meg.org.il/HereAndNow/Newsletter/newsletter.htm

[6] http://www.meitar.org.il/news/news.htm

[7] http://www.inminds.co.uk/boycott-news-0226.html



ESQ UTP batch 4

Sabtu dan ahad lepas telah berlangsung ESQ training batch 4 di UTP. Subhanallah, Alhamdulillah, Allahuakbar. Segala puji hanya bagi Allah, Robb sekalian alam..


Bumi, matahari, bulan, semuanya patuh pada Allah.. terus menerus tanpa henti berputar, bertasbih bertawaf kepada Allah.. Tidak ada satu pun yang keluar dari garis orbit, semuanya ikhlas beputar pada orbit masing2...

Demikian juga kejadian manusia, teruslah berputar berpaksi pada orbit yang telah Allah aturkan utk mu, nescaya engkau akan bahagia, engkau tidak akan sesat.. Lakukan apa yg Allah suruh dan tinggalkan apa yang dilarangNya.

Cukup bahagia kurasakan apabila melihat ramai yg sedar dan merasai kebesaran dan kewujudan Allah pd hari itu. termasuk salah seorang ahli keluargaku. Tiada harapan yg lebih besar melainkan aku ingin melihat seluruh ahli keluargaku kembali ke pangkuan Allah sebelum aku menutup mata.

2 hari bersama adik lelakiku membuat aku makin mengenalinya. Dia kelihatan senyap, tidak mahu berkawan dgn sesiapa, tapi jauh disudut hatinya aku tahu dia seorang yang malu dan rendah diri.

Tidak tahu kenapa sebelum menaiki bas malam itu, dia agak senyap. seperti memikirkan sesuatu. zikir asmaul husna yg ku pasang dia kuatkan volumenya. matanya memandang keluar tingkap. Sebelum menaiki bas pulang ke Kelantan, dia bersalam sambil mencium tanganku. smg engkau menemui kekuatan mu, dik..


Doin dakwah in different way

There are 2 muslim brothers that i admire. Although they're doin dakwah in different way, but they have caught many attention around da world including me, :)


1) Maher Zain


who is he?
Maher Zain (born 1982) is a Swedish singer and music producer of Lebanese origin. His family moved to Sweden when Maher was only eight, where he continued his schooling. Maher got his first keyboard when he was only ten. He later entered university and got a Bachelors degree in Aeronautical Engineering

leg note: Most of his songs touch people heart, as he's doing it from his heart. The song that i like the most is 'the chosen one' which is dedicated to our Rasullullah saw. The video clip is awesome!

2) Ali Ardekani aka Baba Ali


who is he?
Baba Ali is the founder of UmmahFilms, a Muslim film company that has produced a web series including the "Reminder" series and "Ask Baba Ali" series.Though of Muslim heritage He was originally a irreligious and accepted Islam, after studying many religions. http://www.ummahfilms.com

leg note: Most of his reminder in ummah films is really direct pin pointing to today's issues in muslim society. The way he presented his reminder is very interesting and funny sometimes.. Gud luck bro!

usah lari, tapi hadapi~

Masa berlalu pantas. Sungguh pantas sekali. Usah berasa hairan kerana itu adalah salah satu tanda kiamat.


Daripada Anas bin Malik r.a, baginda bersabda: "Tidak akan berlaku kiamat sehingga masa menjadi singkat, maka setahun dirasakan seperti sebulan dan sebulan dirasakan seperti seminggu dan seminggu dirasakan seperti sehari dan sehari dirasakan seperti satu jam dan satu jam dirasakan seperti satu petikan api". (riwayat Tarmizi)


Berbagai-bagai peristiwa yg berlaku sepanjang perjalanan hidup ini semakin banyak mengajarkan saya. Terima kasih Ya Allah, kerana sentiasa mentarbiyah diriku menjadi hamba-Mu yg sebenarnya.

Sedang umat islam masih dalam mood gembira menyambut hari raya, saya dan rakan-rakan universiti dikejutkan dengan berita kematian salah seorang sahabat kami Allahyarham Farhan Rafine. Berita itu benar-benar mengejutkan saya. Biarpun saya hanya seorang kawan sekelas, yg hanya memerhati dari jauh, tapi berita itu cukup memberi pengajaran pd saya.

Tambahan pula, semasa menjaga nenek di hospital sehari sebelum pulang ke UTP, saya melihat sendiri 2 jasad berpisah dengan roh masing2. Bermula dgn nafas yang kian berombak, mata yg memandang ke atas, ahli keluarga yg memenuhi segenap ruang katil menyebut-nyebut nama Allah ditelinga mereka... akhirnya innalillahiwainnailaihi rajiun..


saya terfikir sendiri..
bagaimanakah dengan kematian ku nanti?
adakah husnul khatimah?
apakah aku akan mati dalam maksiat?
atau aku akan mati dalam ibadah?
di saat-saat aku nazak, mampukah aku menyebut nama Allah?

akhirnya saya tewas, airmata ketakutan mengalir jua. nenek kehairanan melihat saya. Benarlah.. kematian itu sangat dekat dengan kita. Tapi kita sering lari dari memikirkannya. Berbagai-bagai alasan utk 'menyedapkan' hati dicipta;
aku masih muda la, sihat lagi kot
aku nak kawin dlu, baru bleh mati
tua aku taubat la
hidup hanya sekali, pehal nak sedih-sedih, enjoy ar

sebenarnya kita tidak mampu lari dari kenyataan bahawa 'kita akan mati'.

Katakanlah: “Sekiranya kamu berada di rumahmu, niscaya orang-orang yang telah ditakdirkan akan mati terbunuh itu keluar (juga) ke tempat mereka terbunuh”. Dan Allah (berbuat demikian) untuk menguji apa yang ada dalam dadamu dan untuk membersihkan apa yang ada dalam hatimu. Allah Maha Mengetahui isi hati. (QS Ali Imran, 3:154)
Maka pada saat akhir kematian kita merupakan bukti utk siapa hidup kita selama ini.

Jika hidup ini hanya memikirkan hiburan, maka akan terbayanglah dalam fikiran kita segala macam keseronokan yang pernah diperbuat,

Jika hidup ini, kita hanya menyintai manusia, maka manusia tidak mampu memberi pertolongan sedikit pun pd kita,

Jika hidup ini utk mencari wang, maka wang sudah tidak beerti lagi,

Tetapi jika hidup ini kita sentiasa mengingat Allah, maka pada hari kematian kita nanti akan dtg seorang malaikat yang tampan menjemput kita berjumpa Allah.
Sahabat sekalian, ingatlah sekali lagi bahawa 'kita akan mati'.

Saya akhiri dgn tanda2 bahawa kematian kita makin hampir..

100 hari : Seluruh badan rasa bergegar.

60 hari : Pusat rasa bergerak-gerak.

40 hari : Daun dengan nama orang yang akan mati di arash akan jatuh dan malaikat maut pun datang kepada orang dengan nama tersebut lalu mendampinginya sehingga saat kematiannya. Kadang-kadang orang yang akan mati itu akan merasa atau nampak kehadiran malaikat maut tersebut dan akan sering kelihatan seperti sedang rungsing.

7 hari : Mengidam makanan.

5 hari : Anak lidah bergerak-gerak.

3 hari : Bahagian tengah di dahi bergerak-gerak.

2 hari : Seluruh dahi rasa bergerak-gerak.

1 hari : Terasa bahagian ubun bergerak-gerak di antara waktu subuh and asar.

Saat akhir : Terasa sejuk dari bahagian pusat hingga ke tulang solbi (di bahagian belakang badan).

Seelok-eloknya bila sudah merasa tanda yang akhir sekali, mengucap dalam keadaan qiam and jangan lagi bercakap-cakap.

Allahua'lam.

Pagiku ingat, petangku alpa..

Raihan: Damba Cinta Mu Lyrics


Tuhanku ampunkanlah segala dosaku
Tuhanku maafkanlah, kejahilan hambaMu
Kusering melanggar laranganmu
Dalam sedar ataupun tidak
Kusering meninggalkan suruhanMu
Walau sedar aku milikMu

Tuhanku ampunkanlah segala dosaku
Tuhanku maafkanlah kejahilan hambaMu

Bilakah diri ini kan kembali
Kepada fitrah sebenar
Pagiku ingat petang ku alpa
Begitulah silih berganti

Oh Tuhanku Kau pimpinlah
Diri ini Yang mendamba cintaMu
Aku lemah Aku jahil
Tanpa pimpinan dariMu

Ku sering depanMu
Sering jua kumemungkiri
Ku pernah menangis keranaMu
Kemudian ketawa semula

Bilakah diri ini kembali
Kepada fitrah sebenar
pagi ku ingat petang ku alpa
Begitulah silih berganti

Oh Tuhanku, kau pimpilah diri ini
Yang mendamba cintaMu
Aku lemah aku jahil tanpa pimpinan dari mu
Kau Pengasih Kau penyayang Kau Pengampun
Kepada hamba-hambamu
Selangkah ku kepadaMu Seribu Langkah kau padaku

Tuhan diri ini tidak layak ke syurgaMu
Tapi tidak pula aku snaggup kenerakaMu

Kutakut kepadaMu
Kuharap jua padaMu
Mogaku kan selamat dunia akhirat
Seperti rasul dan sahabat