ku panjat sebuah doa

Ya Allah! Aku mohon pemilihan Mu menerusi pengetahuan Mu dan aku mohon kekuatan Mu menerusi kudrat Mu serta aku minta pada Mu sebahagian dari limpah kurnia Mu yang sangat besar. Sesungguhnya Engkau amat berkuasa sedangkan aku tidak berkuasa, Engkau amat mengetahui sedangkan aku tidak mengetahui dan sesungguhnya Engkau amat mengetahui segala yang ghaib. Ya Allah kiranya Engkau mengetahui bahawa perkara ini adalah baik bagiku dalam urusan agama ku juga dalam urusan penghidupan ku serta natijah pada urusan ku, kini dan akan datang, maka tetapkan lah ia bagi ku dan permudahkanlah ia untukku, serta berkatilah daku padanya. Dan kiranya Engkau mengetahui bahawa perkara ini membawa kejahatan kepadaku dalam urusan agamaku, juga dalam urusan penghidupanku dan natijah urusanku, kini dan akan datang, maka elakkanlah ia dariku dan tetapkanlah kebaikan untukku sebagaimana sepatutnya, kemudian jadikanlah daku meredhainya. (Dari hadis riwayat Imam Bukhari)

Kalau dh itu takdirnya..

I am not from a rich family. My family is just an ordinary, moderate family originated from Kelantan. I have a funny but fierce dad, a kind yet firm mother.

I have a brother who just finish his study from an ordinary college, but he has a beautiful heart. He always put his siblings first, he always thinking that he is not really important compared to others.. you're important to me bro.. i still remember, one day, he rather go to work by his kapcai moto, because he want me to use the car. Yet he was trapped in the rain because of other people..
Ya Allah mulianya hati abgku, berilah dia hidayah dan keampuanan-Mu..

I have 2 younger brother and sista. My bro is not entering any universiti as he loves sport so much. but he is not as good as khairul fahmi che mat, his friend, so he left his whole life interest, and now he is working with my pak cik, who own an insurance company. my youngest sista is now studying in UNISEL doing early childhood education. She is always kind and menjadi kesayangan mama & papa coz she is the youngest (ayat cam jeles je kan.. hehe)

Graduating from UTP is my dream that i always wanna give as a beautiful memory to my parent. And last sunday, 16 oct 2011, i can say, the happiest day to my parent. They never attend any graduation ceremony before, so that was their first experience. i always wanna serve my parent right after i finish my studies, but I've tried my best yet, i do not received any interview.

But one day i got a call that turn out to be my rezeki that i never thought before. My Japanese professor, call me and ask me to be his Research Assistant and at the same time doing master under him. Gosh.. menda yg paling sy tanak adalah sambung blaja turn out to be my destiny. That is what we call REZEKI, we may have our own plan, but Allah has better plan..

Maybe Allah want me to be a lecturer, maybe Allah want me to continue doin da'wah in UTP. But leaving my family again for another 2 years is really a tearful moment for me.

Ya Allah, aku mohon Engkau permudahkan urusan dunia & akhirat ku, jadikan aku anak yang berbakti kepada kedua ibubapaku, jadikan aku seorang manusia yg berbakti kpd agama-Mu.



It had been so long i've not written anything in my novel of life.. i wonder if anyone really follow my blog coz me myself pun not that istiqamoh to update my own blog. huhuhu.

For me, a blog is not a medium to really want people to follow pon, it's just my novel of life to write anything about my life. maybe my story would inspire your life.. (bajet cam tokoh wanita kebangsaan je kan)

hmm.. I can say 2011 is really a year that Allah swt have tests me with a lot of dugaan & cubaan.. Dugaan & cubaan doesn't mean something yg susah giler, xde nasi nk makan ke, kena pelempang dgn lecturer ke.. its beyond that.. di beri cubaan kesenangan, cubaan perasaan (err.. yelah slalu pong pang pong pang bg tazkirah kt adik2.. ni Allah kasi direct nye ujian), to see how we handle that.. coz Allah berfirman,

“Patutkah manusia menyangka bahawa mereka akan dibiarkan dengan hanya berkata: “Kami beriman”, sedang mereka tidak diuji (dengan sesuatu cubaan)? Dan demi sesungguhnya! Kami telah menguji orang-orang yang terdahulu daripada mereka, maka (dengan ujian yang demikian), nyata apa yang diketahui Allah tentang orang-orang yang sebenar-benarnya beriman, dan nyata pula apa yang diketahuiNya tentang orang-orang yang berdusta. ” (Surah Al-Ankabut : 2,3)

and Alhamdulillah, i manage to go tru it with smile altho there are tears in my eyes.. well i've learn something~


detik waktu terus berjalan
berhias gelap dan terang
suka dan duka tangis dan tawa
tergores bagai lukisan

seribu mimpi berjuta sepi
hadir bagai teman sejati
di antara lelahnya jiwa
dalam resah dan air mata
kupersembahkan kepadaMu
yang terindah dalam hidup

meski ku rapuh dalam langkah
kadang tak setia kepadaMu
namun cinta dalam jiwa
hanyalah padaMu

maafkanlah bila hati
tak sempurna mencintaiMu
dalam dadaku harap hanya
diriMu yang bertahta

detik waktu terus berlalu
semua berakhir padaMu

song: Opick

Live your life

Right now, in the very moment that you are reading this article, you can start doing what is necessary to completely transform the quality of your life. It’s nothing complicated, the key is in the understanding of the principles. How do you get the ball rolling? Here are 5 ways that can help you start living a truly exceptional life:

Don’t demand, become
Don’t wait for the world to give you something. Go out there and make it happen. Don’t be a person that reacts to a situation, be the one that made the situation happen. Let me give you an example. Lottery is a pretty popular activity in most countries, especially in North America, where people spend up to hundreds of dollars a month in hopes of winning. I’m sure you all know the odds of winning the lottery, let’s just say you have a better chance of being bitten by a shark without even swimming! If those people were to take their money and do something productive like investing it or building a business for example, their chances of becoming financially rich skyrockets! So remember, don’t wait for things to happen to you, make it happen for you.

Work harder on yourself
Most people spend more time focusing on their work than they do on themselves. You are the foundation to all that you do and become. Without a proper, well kept foundation, anything built upon it is prone to be flawed. Make it your mantra to improve who you are as a human being. How about learning to be a nicer person, instead of worrying about what others think of you? How about doing some good deed for someone else, instead of thinking about what else you can buy yourself? How about learning to relax, instead of agonizing about your schedule for tomorrow? Think in terms of “quality”, become a better person, take care of yourself more, learn to prioritize your personal growth, and watch how it affects all other areas of your life. Don’t believe me? Try it for yourself!

Associate with winners
Negative energy is like a virus. It spreads very easily, and it is very contagious. Losers have a tendency to relish within their own misery, as if they’ve gone mad from this “negativity plague”, and if they can bring anyone down to their level, all the better for them. Learn to stay away from losers and their negative energy. There is nothing for you to gain. You won’t change them by trying, as a matter of fact, they are trying to rip you apart from your own positivity. We tend to become a product of our environment, and this includes our circle of acquaintances. Keep company with successful, happy people, and let it rub off on you. You will feed off from each other’s energy and build it up, instead of down.

Greatness is an art form
Happiness and greatness is not having more or doing more. The secret is all in the style. Living well is like a beautiful piece of art. Imagine a stunning painting, with exquisite details, and attention to even the slightest, most obscure areas of the canvas. View your life and your striving for a better life in the same manner. Be the person that leaves a healthy tip. Be the one that takes time to read a book with your kids. Be the person that raises the bar for quality. You are the artist, and it is up to you to create the most unique, most exceptional piece of art that there is: your life.

Do your part, God will do his
My mom always used to say the following saying in French when I was a kid, “aide toi et le ciel t’aidera”. To lead an exceptional life, it is crucial that you do what you are supposed to do. Don’t wait for others to bail you out and do it for you. Don’t wait for God to lay a helping hand. Miracles are probably more rare than winning the lottery! Help yourself. Do your part. Do what’s right. Follow your heart. Then, and only then, will you have aligned yourself enough with the helping hands of your God that if not miracles, then at least magic, will take place :)

Taken from: http://www.ineedmotivation.com/blog/2010/08/5-ways-to-live-a-more-exceptional-life/


Alhamdulillah ya Allah,,, to know U, to love U, to being love by U.. is the most awesome thing ever happen to me. As for me before this, i just know Allah as a God.. nothing less, nothing much. But, after several causes happen, i started to realize the One behind all those things happen in my whole life is U. The happiness cannot be replaced by any word.

May this happiness will never end.

To those who read this blog, there is only one message i wanna share.. its about our solat. If your solat make you become a discipline, honest, positive person.. so its look like you really care bout ur solat.. but if its the other way around... the solat is just a physical activities without meaning. try to improve in give some focus in our solat, so we will be a very visionary person in real life...

may Allah forgive all of us..

the choices are yours

Don't you ever dare to think that you have a long life ahead. A friend of mine was about a week hospitalized for lung failure. We never when is our time.

Kehidupan ini bukanlah permulaan mahupun pertengahan, tapi bagaimana pengakhirannya. Bagaimana pengakhiran kehidupan yg kita mahukan?

I give you some examples:

BANGKOK: Sebuah kelab malam yang sedang meraikan ketibaan Tahun Baru 2009 di tengah Bangkok terbakar, menyebabkan sekurang-kurangnya 60 maut dan 212 cedera.

or you can choose this

whatever it is, the choices are yours..

Aku rindu

Aku rindu zaman ketika “halaqoh” adalah kebutuhan,bukan sekedar sambilan apalagi hiburan

Aku rindu zaman ketika “membina” adalah kewajiban,bukan pilihan apalagi beban dan paksaan

Aku rindu zaman ketika “dauroh” menjadi kebiasaan,bukan sekedar pelengkap pengisi program yang dipaksakan

Aku rindu zaman ketika “tsiqoh” menjadi kekuatan,bukan keraguan apalagi kecurigaan

Aku rindu zaman ketika “tarbiyah” adalah pengorbanan,bukan tuntutan dan hujatan

Aku rindu zaman ketika “nasihat” menjadi kesenangan,bukan su’udzon atau menjatuhkan

Aku rindu zaman ketika kita semua memberikan segalanya untuk da’wah iniAku rindu zaman ketika “nasyid ghuroba” menjadi lagu kebangsaan

Aku rindu zaman ketika hadir di “liqo” adalah kerinduan, dan terlambatadalah kelalaian

Aku rindu zaman ketika malam gerimis pergi ke puncak mengisi daurohdengan ongkos ngepas dan peta tak jelas

Aku rindu zaman ketika seorang ikhwah benar-benar jalan kaki 2 jam di malam buta sepulang tabligh dawah di desa sebelah

Aku rindu zaman ketika akan pergi liqo selalu membawa uang infak, alat tulis, buku catatan dan Qur’an terjemahan ditambah sedikit hafalan

Aku rindu zaman ketika seorang binaan menangis karena tak bisa hadir di liqo

Aku rindu zaman ketika tengah malam pintu depan diketok untuk mendapat berita kumpul subuh harinya

Aku rindu zaman ketika seorang ikhwah berangkat liqo dengan ongkos jatah belanja esok hari untuk keluarganya

Aku rindu zaman ketika seorang murobbi sakit dan harus dirawat, para binaan patungan mengumpulkan dana apa adanya

Aku rindu zaman itu,

Aku rindu…Ya ALLAH,

Jangan Kau buang kenikmatan berda’wah dari hati-hati kami

Jangan Kau jadikan hidup ini hanya berjalan di tempat yang sama….”

By: KH Rahmat Abdullah